Birthday Party!!!!!!!!!!

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Current mood: tired
Category: Life

I'm sorry everyone... (not that too many of you are in Jacksonville)

But I will NOT make it to Murray Hill Theatre for Swing Dancing on my Birthday...

I love you all, and miss you very much...

But I am WAY more than broke at the moment.

I'm not working a whole lot...
My roommate is moving out next week
So I will be paying rent by myself come next month... (maybe not though....)
Gas... (need I say more?)
Anyway... Money's really REALLY tight....

I really want to move back to Jacksonville... I miss life there...
And I can't wait for one of you to get home from France!!!!

So anyway... I have these EXCITING plans for my birthday....
.....
....
dinner with my family....
(yippee....) :-(
What a wonderful birthday....
Oh well... I suppose it could be worse...

Currently listening : Son, I Loved You at Your Darkest By As Cities Burn Release date: By 21 June, 2005

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	Blossoming Orchid	thats sad, i was hoping that you would be here, but yeah i totally understand the money thing. oh well you have to come to jax soon enough anyways, i mean Bri is comming back. so now you have something to look forward to. :) Posted by Blossoming Orchid on Thursday, June 14, 2007 at 4:11 AM

	Brianna	Awwwww! You won't be there when I get back? Well, I geuss it's ok, I know I'll see you at some point when I get back! Love you Matt! Posted by Brianna on Thursday, June 14, 2007 at 5:56 AM

quig the joker

Look at it in a differnt view through these trials you have a chance to grow spirtually open a new chapter and doors and while its hard missing home just remember were ever we rome is temporary get amessage going with me talk to me I'll be your accountablity partner I'm worried your always so up beat livly but lately that seems to be missing you have my number pick up and call I not pysically worried but spirtually and with that I go Posted by quig the joker on Saturday, June 16, 2007 at 4:57 PM

A letter to prove it... I deserve BETTER!!!!

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Current mood: exhausted
Category: Life

Well a friend (a WONDERFULLY GREAT friend) recently sent me a message. This isn't all of it... but most of it.

Matt,
I'm worried about you. We havn't talked, or e-mailed, for qutie awhile and the blogs that you've been posting lately seem more than just discouraged or lonesome. I hate the idea that your feeling so down, but I don't know what I can do to make you feel better. KNow that I love you and I'm here for you, if you need me. ... I will drop everything and talk with you. I don't like you feeling this way, Mathew. You shouldn't be, your to good of a guy. Please call me. I want to hear from you...And I wouldn't mind knowing how Tiger Lilly is doing either. :)!
I love you lots

This just made me think... something that I was just thinking while driving up here to my mom's office.

Friends always have enough time to care...

So this just helps to support what I've been thinking... that I am so much better than the demons that I've been fighting.
The demons don't care about me...
They don't respond to me when I cry out... left out... alone... drained of all life...
They are the ones sucking the life out of me...
And I've been letting them...

And so as I was saying in my last blog...

I AM DONE!!!!
I am DONE with you demons!!!
I'm sick and tired of bowing to you're weakness...
And accepting your "love" as the best I deserve...
I deserve so much more than you...
Hate from my friends shows more caring than the "love" that you claim to have for me.

I will not be drown by this anymore...
You will leave me alone!!!
Because I am DONE!!!!

Currently listening : Son, I Loved You at Your Darkest By As Cities Burn Release date: By 21 June, 2005

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	Blossoming Orchid	im glad that your letting go and leaving your demons, because you really are great and you diserve the best. Posted by Blossoming Orchid on Thursday, June 14, 2007 at 4:06 AM

	Brianna	I'm glad your leaving "them" behind and I like the tone of this blog better. And I can't wait to see you soon! Posted by Brianna on Thursday, June 14, 2007 at 5:54 AM

Catharine

So, should I start with asking how are you??? It's been a really long time but I still read your blogs when I sign in to myspace and check up on how you are doing. What's new with you?? If you have a chance drop me a message and catch me up on your life. Take it easy, Catharine Posted by Catharine on Monday, July 02, 2007 at 9:48 PM

Is Done Good Enough??? What you wanted???

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I'm done!!!!! It's OVER!!!!! I'm not putting up with it. I've been trying and trying... The prayers that I rarely pray keep hitting the ceiling... New Strategy. Pray more often... then... when the ceiling isn't there... some will go through. And that's it... I'm done!!! DONE WITH YOU!!!! You asked for it... You've begged for it... You tried to cover it... You should've seen this coming... You did it to yourself...

Currently listening : Son, I Loved You at Your Darkest By As Cities Burn Release date: By 21 June, 2005

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quig the joker

what ever your done with you must keep in mind your best interest aren't always gods best interest and here it bowls down to a matter of the heart until you are ever to ask with your heart set on him and only him but remeber he knowevery thought every intention on your mind but those may not be his thoughts and intentions for you for I have plans declares the lord plans to prosper you plans to give you hope hope this helps Posted by quig the joker on Tuesday, June 12, 2007 at 8:08 AM

Splitting means one leaves another

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Current mood: rejected
Category: Life

I have a headache...

I'm tired...

I'm really feeling quite lonely...

And people care... they're just not the people I really want to care...

And I'm gonna go home...

Where I will be alone...

See ya later... (but probably not)

Currently listening : Cover Your Eyes By Sullivan Release date: By 05 June, 2007

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	Jesus loves the HELL outta you!!	Dude, I hate that you feel this way. I've been there....and visit often enough. If you need anything, just holler. I luv ya man! Next time I get down there we gotta get together. Stay straight Posted by Jesus loves the HELL outta you!! on Saturday, June 09, 2007 at 1:22 AM

	quig the joker	Matt hate you feel like that man get some sleep another beautiful day lies ahead Posted by quig the joker on Saturday, June 09, 2007 at 12:48 PM

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Be a Man About It!

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Current mood: Gotta Go... (potty!!!)
Category: Writing and Poetry

Okay, so I know the ending's a bit cheesy... but I still like the whole idea... It just might need some ironing.

Be a Man About It!
06-01-07 (18:32)

Maybe it's too simple
I've been in a childlike state-of-mind
But now you've got me thinking like what a man should be
And it's got my stomach turning
Over and over
It's got me sleeping less
And dreaming horrors
And oh, Dear,
You know I love you to death
But this way you've got me thinking
Has got me thinking we're better off dead

I wrote the story
And this is how it goes
I'll hold you close my love
I don't wanna die lonely
But when the sea starts spilling
Over the sides of the boat
Leave me to drown, Baby
I can hit rock bottom alone.

I've been spending all my days
With a tired old man
He doesn't think much of conversation
But the calluses on his hand 'll show you
He's been shoveling mud
For a lifetime or two
And his words are carefully chosen
And properly spoken.
I think he's trying to tell me
About what a man should be
And this way he's got me thinking
Has got me digging for life vests
Watch out how fast...
We're going down!

I wrote the story
And this is how it goes
I'll hold you close my love
I don't wanna die lonely
But when the sea starts spilling
Over the sides of the boat
Leave me to drown, Baby
I can hit rock bottom alone.

But this way you've got me thinking
It's got my stomach churning like the sea
And my elderly friend stopped speaking
He's just staring blankly at me
Was it something I said?
Was it something I did?
Was it a choice that I made?
I built a lifeboat out of this sinking ship
And I'll show you what a real man should be

I chose the story
And this is how we're going
I'll hold you close with passion
We're not gonna die my lovely
And when the angered sea starts spilling
Over the sides of this boat
Just leave it to me, Baby
I'm keeping this ship afloat.
(19:24)


And if anyone hasn't noticed that I've been listening to Chasing Victory a bit lately... They have a new CD out called "Fiends." It's a bit short, but it is a GREAT CD!
And don't forget Sullivan's new CD "Cover Your Eyes" out this Tuesday.
Grab it. It sounds awesome from what I've heard online.

Currently listening : Fiends By Chasing Victory Release date: By 08 May, 2007

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	Blossoming Orchid	I really like this one Matt, even the ending ;) Posted by Blossoming Orchid on Saturday, June 02, 2007 at 9:39 PM

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Sullivan "Cover Your Eyes"

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Current mood: CAN'T WAIT!!!!!
Category: Music

Hey Everyone -

SULLIVAN is releasing a new album this Tuesday, JUNE 5TH. They have written an amazing record and everyone should go pick up a copy this Tuesday!

Be sure to check out their page and listen to some of the great tracks, produced by the infamous James Paul Wisner (Underoath, Dashboard Confessional, Paramore, etc.). And check them out on the road right now with MXPX and all summer with tons of other great bands!!!

VISIT THEM HERE!!!
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Be a part of SULLIVAN'S MySpace takeover! Just create your own bulletin and blog and let all your friends know who Sullivan is!

Currently listening : Cover Your Eyes By Sullivan Release date: By 05 June, 2007

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