Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Blindside

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Category: Music
Blindside - "When I Remember"

That boy is gone
Sometimes I miss the way he wept at night
To be still and not run
To be rocked to sleep in Your light
These days there is not much that will bring tears to my eyes
But when I remember who I am and who You are
When I remember

A cloud moves in, rain falls, thunder strikes
And sunshine breaks through the clouds

I am walking blind
So distracted that I don't even feel when You hold me
When did I grow such thick skin
You are my sunshine and rain
My joy and sweet pain
I'm a spotless stain
That boy is gone
But nobody moves me like You do
When I remember

A could moves in, rain falls, thunder strikes
And sunshine breaks through the clouds
I can cry out of sorrow and joy
Every drop of rain turns into a crystal in the sun
So wash my eyes, my clothes, my skin, my bones, my soul
My feet, my love
I'm not forgotten
I'm in your thoughts cause I feel sunshine in the rain

To this day nobody moves
Nobody

Nobody moves me like You

When I remember...

Blindside - "Eye Of The Storm"
I think I've stayed for the last time
Goodbye!
Hope is so much closer to beauty than sorrow
I think I'll leave and leave self pity to die
Reflection is always brighter than the shadow

Please come closer
Cause I don't even touch You anymore
Please see I'm walking in to the eye of the storm
And I'll still come out loving You even more

Love is in the air tonight
So just breathe
You made sure the atmosphere was thick tonight
So this is where it begins and where it ends
With a crack in a dark sky piercing light

Please come closer
Cause my heart doesn't touch Yours anymore
Please see I'm walking into the eye of the storm
And I'll still come out loving You even more

Love is in the air tonight so just breathe
Breathe my spirit breathe
Leave, leave now and don't look back
Leave, leave now and don't you look back

Please come closer
Cause my heart doesn't touch Yours anymore
Please see I'm walking into the eye of the storm
And I'll still come out loving You even more

Blindside - "Midnight"
Fast lane, sane, insane this world is running
And I'm walking with a cane
Seek, seek you can be unique
But whatever you do don't let your inside out
But I've got to take a leak

And I know You're alive
And you know I will always try
I could never care less about
What this world has to offer if the price is to die
I'll keep my human spirit alive

Man I'm so weak
Come on over here I'll let you have a peek
Inside my heart cause you're the one I seek
I know I'm slow but wherever I go
I hear your steps echo

And I know You're alive
And I'll give my heart to survive
This world has nothing to offer a human soul
Reaching for the sky
So Father of light
Keep my human spirit alive

Will I try to hide away in the secret space of my heart
Will I try in time
Will I try with my feet on the ground of shadows
But my hands towards the light
Will I try in time

Your eyes --Are always there
Your eyes --Are what I came for
Your eyes --Drive away my fear
Your eyes --I could just stand there and adore

Stop just right there
Everything has to stop to steal time
For whom I want to be near
Yes I do care and I love the love we share

And I know You're alive
I'll give my heart to survive
This world has nothing to offer a human soul
Reaching for the sky
So Father of light
Keep this human spirit alive
Will I try...

Seems there is nothing to remind me of peace down here
So how come that all I feel is joy

Blindside - "You Must Be Bleeding Under Your Eyelids"
Her pain is a fog that he inhales
Puts down the phone, neck suddenly stale
It's just another night with a sad different song
Heard from somewhere now she sings along
Turn the car-key, back out of the driveway
He sees her face and he closes his eyes
She still believes the lies

Pretty pretty eyes with a darker tone
Another hour in front of the mirror now all the scars are shown
They say let's have another toast let's sing another song
She tries but the vine is bitter and the words wrong
She still believes the lies

When you see yourself you're seeing red
And it makes you blind
You must be bleeding under your eyelids tonight
You wait for something to break the mold
And all I can do is wipe the blood from your eyes
You must be bleeding under your eyelids

One tear in the sink, swallow the next one
Now out of sight but not really gone
I put the key in the door don't want to walk through
Hang on the handle for a second or two
As the door opens I feel your sadness from across the room
And now for your beauty I'm lost for words

When you see yourself you're seeing red
And it makes you blind
You must be bleeding under your eyelids tonight
You wait for something to break the mold
And all I can do is wipe the blood from your eyes
You must be bleeding under your eyelids tonight

Wait for something to break the mold
Before your eyes grow old and cold
Keep your ears close to the ground
Don't move until you hear a sound

Currently listening :
About a Burning Fire
By Blindside
Release date: By 24 February, 2004

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I have blindside sleepwalker as my ring tone on my phone right now. and it rocks.

Posted by Austin AKA Crazy Rifle Monkey on Tuesday, February 06, 2007 at 1:06 PM

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

As Cities Burn - Admission : Regret

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Category: Music
As Cities Burn - "Admission: Regret"

So I hear there's a whole world out there
But I've grown to love this bed too much to leave it
If love really drives out fear
Then I pray it's her voice I've been hearing outside my door

One more time, Love, won't you come remind me
I'm someone believed in
I'm some one still within your reach
'Cause all I've got is sleep
Against my fear of being swept away
By the wind, the undertow, and thought

Regret!

So I hear there's a whole world out there
But I've grown to love this bed too much to leave it
I keep hearing about this world out there
Come untie me from this bed
Come untie me from the wicked things I love

Awake! Awake in the company of men given something to say
Give me a servant's heart
And a tongue to obey
Awake! Come wind!
Awake! Come thought!
Tired head, take up your mat,
Take your mat and walk!
Currently listening :
Son, I Loved You at Your Darkest
By As Cities Burn
Release date: By 21 June, 2005
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Diagram of Love

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Category: Romance and Relationships

I don't believe there is an easy way through this part of life. There is no easy way to stop trying for something and then prove you're not a quitter. There is now easy way to break your own heart, but I know that I must. God is calling me. God is asking that I give him my heart, and my life completely. Join me in chasing after God's heart.

"It's a fight between my heart and mind, No one really wins this time
In the endless fight of grace and pride, No one really wins this time."

You want to love, I know you do, but it seems like something is holding you back. I don't know if it's fear, or doubt, or your friends, or your family.
I know that it is in you to love. I can see you dying to let it out.
I know that at times we can be very lonely, but God will be our comfort and our shelter, and our strength. Come with me. Run with me.
It is not shameful to run from Satan. I believe it is wise. We all want the physical aspect of love, but that needs to wait. I know it feels good, and God knows that we want it, but it needs
God is Love. I am chasing after him because I know this. I want nothing to hinder my ability to love, and if that means leaving behind things that I want, so-be-it. I love movies and video games, and countless other activities. God isn't telling me I can't enjoy these things. He is simply trying to help me get my priorities straight. He needs to be first in my life, not me.
He is saying "Do anything and everything that you enjoy. I want you to be happy. But nothing will satisfy you unless you first have love. I am love, and I am freely offering myself to you for your benefit and pleasure." He's not telling me (or you) that we can't watch rated movies or tv, or go out with our friends, or have sex. He is telling us that these things will never please us if we don't have him. We were created to worship him, and this whole world is unsatisfied and "seeking" because that is our purpose in life, and they are trying to figure out what they're supposed to be worshipping. Is it the next American Idol? Johnny Depp? The love of your life? Friends? Money?
God is not saying these things are bad. He created them. He wants us to enjoy his creations. They were all created for us and for our enjoyment. We were created to be his companions. We were created for his enjoyment. He delights in us.
to wait until you're in "Love"

Draw a triangle before you read on.
This will be a diagram to show you how love works.
Write "God (Love)" at the top point of the triangle.
Write "A" and "B" at the two bottom angles.
Draw in the middle of the side opposite the angle that says "God (Love)"


/\
God (Love)
/ \
/ \
/ \
/ \
A_____ * _____B


This triangle shows where we are as humans. Most couples join at the *. God is hardly involved if he is involved at all, because we focus on keeping each other close and we don't focus on God. For love to be healthy and complete, we need to focus on God. As we get closer to God, God will bring us closer together until we are within him, and thus "in Love."
So chase after God. Meet your lover there: in Love. It's not an easy road. But it promises eternal joy. No more sadness. No loneliness.
I am not forcing you to use this model. I am not trying to use love as leverage to get you to follow God half-heartedly.
I will focus on reaching God, and I will wait all my life for (a certain) someone to meet me in Love. I know that God did not create a better girl for me than the one who will meet me there. No one can be better than perfect. He created us all exactly as he meant to; every strength, every flaw. He created me exactly as he wants me to be.
I have never been so sure of anything in my life. My faith in God has always been the determining factor of every choice. Every thought I had, I knew God was waiting for me. I knew he loved me, but I always wanted to be able to enjoy the things of this world. I was always too busy to make time for God, but now...
I know, I may miss out on a few things for a short time, but I will have eternity to catch up. Movies I missed, games I didn't have time for; I will have time for everything one day, but only if I am with God.
This is why I am running after him. This is why Janell is running after him. She tried everything... Nothing satisfied. But now she knows what will. It's simply a matter of surrendering yourself. I am giving up my pathetic excuse for a life so that I can live the ultimate life.
I cannot express how much I want you to join me, but that is up to you. The one requirement that God demands is dependence. We MUST depend completely on him. We must stop depending on ourselves. I know that this can be a hard surrender for most. That is why I am not forcing this on you.
It breaks my heart to leave some things, but that's what God requires. He promises to give us a heart that will last forever; his heart. But in order to give us his eternal, joyful, perfect heart, he must first remove ours. We were supposed to give him our heart first, before we fell in love with anything else, but we didn't. So now, he must cut off all of these ties. Don't worry though. When he replaces our hearts with his, he will put all those veins back. Our broken hearts will be fully mended if we allow him to fully break them. Hearts don't break because they kind of like something; they break when love is involved.
Love is involved here, and I am willing to break my heart, to have it restored and repaired completely, 100% brand new. I want to do this so that I can love in the best way possible.

I want to run, full speed ahead. If I move slowly, or say "I just have to do this first, or finish this" I will get tied up and be held back and tripped up. That is why I want to drop EVERYTHING and run to God. I pray that you will come with me.
Think of the triangle when you think of loving someone. The closer you get to God, the closer you get to each other.
Meet each other there: "in Love."

Well, that's all for now.
I hope this encourages you as much as it encouraged me when I accidentally wrote it.

"Your Face Here" upon my heart with love
Matthew

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Amanda Marie

This seriously almost made me cry (in a good way). I am just in awe because of all the stuff that God has shown me through this. I want to join you in this run towards God. I need to join you. I want to drop everything. And I would love to say that I am ready and willing right now. But I can promise you that I will join you sometime soon. Thanks for encouraging me!!

Love wholeheartedly your sister,

Amanda

Posted by Amanda Marie on Tuesday, January 23, 2007 at 11:36 PM


Brianna

This is very encourageing. I'm running with you.

Posted by Brianna on Wednesday, January 24, 2007 at 5:46 AM

"Vices"

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Current mood: cheerful
Category: Music
Dead Poetic – "Vices"

Feeling cold, feeling empty. Set the stage, where you want me.
And this crowd right before me doesn't care that I'm dying.
And the audience stands with their eyes fixed on the preconceived version of me.
I'm so betrayed by your hopes, but I will not hide myself for your peace of mind.

Oh, but Child. I've got vices like any other man…

Raise a boy to a cynic. Take his love, and then let it turn into some passionate.
Something sick, something rabid.
And I vent to keep myself from caving.
I don't hate you, I just hate where I'm heading.
I'm left here asking, when did I trade my bleeding heart in for a selfish win?

Oh, but Mother. I've got vices like any other man.
Vices that you're not used to. Vices that'll make you think less of me.

Leave me numb. Leave me jaded. She's a dream, I just play dead.
I've been blessed, I've been hated. She's the constant, and I'm her addict.
She's the only peace in this world, uneasy.
While I bite my tongue to keep from breaking,
The heart that I've spent my whole life seeking.
The only heart I've ever needed.

Oh, but Lover. I've got vices like any other man.
Vices that you're not used to. Vices that'll make you think...
Oh, but Lover. I've got vices like any other man.
Vices that you're not used to.
Vices that'll make you think less of me. Less of me.

Feeling cold, feeling empty. I am low, unworthy.
Bleed the God. Bleed the blessing. Like a vulture feasting.
I'll exist as if I don't feel conviction of my ignorance to my perfect prison,
But I feel the stabs on my wrists and ankles ever time I try...

To forget you. To forget you.

Oh, but Jesus. I've got vices like any other man.
Vices that you're so used to. Vices that won't make you think less of me.

Currently listening :
I Call This Abandonment
By Chasing Victory
Release date: By 04 October, 2005
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Monday, January 22, 2007

So, have you ever

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Category: Life

Have you ever done anything stupid, and hurt someone?
How do you get close to them again?
How many apologies does it take before they'll trust you again?
Will they hurt you if you give them the chance?


I'm sorry for what I've done. Actions speak louder than apologies, but I don't know how to act out that I'm sorry. I came back didn't I?
I grew in leaving.
I'm glad that I learned what I learned, and I grew where I grew, but I wish I hadn't hurt you in the process. I never meant to... I never wanted to...
I was so afraid of hurting you.
I loved you even then...
I just didn't realize it until after I grew where I grew, and learned what I learned.
I loved you, and that's why I was afraid.
I promise: the grass will never be greener on the other side for me ever again.
I know what is here, and even if is goes brown, I know it will be green again with time.
I don't want to push you away.
I feel like you're letting me push you away though, and I'm afraid that that's what you want.
I don't understand...
You have to talk to me, tell me what's going on.


When does a broken heart heal?
When does a broken heart forgive?
How long does it take?
When does a broken heart learn to love again?
Does it ever learn to love the breaker?
Will it forgive the breaker?

I pray for God's healing.
I know it is needed greatly in my life.
My heart is ... in need of repair and caring, and healing, and love.
I pray for forgiveness, and I pray for greatness, and I pray for love and hope and faith.

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Sunday, January 21, 2007

Beauty + Beast = Love (what's that say about us?)

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Current mood: hopeful
Category: Friends
- > x <

She doesn't set a standard. If she did, then there could be an "above average"...

She sets the bar that no one will EVER reach!
No one can ever reach it.
She is beautiful.
I love her.
And no one can ever take that from me.


There is a triangle.
I am in one angle, she is in another, Love is in the third.
God is Love.
God is Truth.
God is Life.
I know I can't be with you now...
... but will you meet me in that third angle?
We will have our struggles,
We will have hard times,
Life will never be perfect,
But we will never be sorry that we joined together with Love.
Will you meet me there?


Negative infinity to infinity
Forever
Love

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not provoked, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails;
. . .
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly, but the greatest of these is love.

(from 1 Corinthians 13, NIV, NASB, Message, and Amplified)

Currently listening :
Eat, Sleep, Repeat
By Copeland
Release date: By 31 October, 2006
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Amanda Marie

=)

We need to converse more soon. This makes me happy. The End.

Posted by Amanda Marie on Monday, January 22, 2007 at 9:46 PM

Tuesday, January 9, 2007

Back in the swing of chaos

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Current mood: Panic
Category: Writing and Poetry

What a nice little box
Why don't you lock yourself in
No one ever comes or goes here
What a neat little box
So far away
From everything and everyone you ever loved

And I'm starting to panic
The walls are closing in
I'm locked inside
And I cannot escape 'here'
All the exits are closed
The lights have been shut off
The windows all have bars
And the open skies are painted on
Marked "Closed for Renovation"

And I'm just praying for patience
I just want one more chance
To catch your scent one more time
To touch your lips
And hold your hand in mine
Your voice on the phone
This is hard
It takes effort...
But I'm in it forever

What a nice little box
So well self-contained
I think I'll lock myself away
What a neat little box
Lonely and isolated
I think I'll lock myself away
So far away
From everything
It's not by choice
I'm trying to escape
I'll find my way to you.

Currently listening :
Saosin
By Saosin
Release date: By 26 September, 2006
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quig the joker

Good choice of listening just got that cd 3 wks back nice poem by the way oh and to quote dire straits that what this reminds me of oddly enough so far away from your so far away

Posted by quig the joker on Tuesday, January 09, 2007 at 7:17 PM