Current mood:
depressed Category: Writing and Poetry
Okay, so to catch up for the past month....
07-02-07 (01:30)
Oh I'm so tired
Having to watch the hero get the girl
Why can't they make the Real World
More like the life we know?
Cause I don't see the ending happily
I just see a nice guy
Trying to be (strong)
Getting strung along
And strangled by a leash
Like tug-o-war
But I'm fighting with a tree
Please
Just come out and say it
I hope you get
Everything you've ever wanted
But why can't you tell me
That I'm just your sturdy ground
When you fail to find anything else
07-03-07 (02:11)
I've decided
I'll never be lonely again
Never again
I'll accustom myself
To being on my own
And once I've accomplished the task
I'll never be lonely again
After that
I'll never be lonely
Only all alone!
But never lonely again
Never again.
Like taking the strongest drug
Over time
The dose isn't strong enough
And I'll phase it out
I'll where myself down
Like a pencil whose lead's run out
I'll scratch it all down
And carve it all out
Leaving hints in the softer stones
As to how I'll be living alone
And once I've accomplished the task
I'll never bee lonely again
I'll never be lonely
After that
I'll be on my own
Only all alone
But I'll never be lonely again
Never again
07-16-07 (01:17)
So call the bet on the weather report
There's been a disturbance in the news
This signals growing weaker
And all I can hear is how you're ready for...
Now the static's found its way in
Disrupting the peace you've been trying to find
The sound of silence
Has plucked my eyes from their sockets
And now it's singing me goodnight.
What is there left to prove?
Can you still question my doubt
I told you
I'll believe it when I see it
Or when I hear that sound
Now the static's found its way in
Disrupting the peace you've been trying to find
The sound of silence
Has plucked my eyes from their sockets
And now it's singing me goodnight.
How strong is the power of love?
A bond like nothing else could hold
A bond not easily broken
But silence...
Too bad you're feeling so alone!
Too bad Too bad
And I'm sorry
I know exactly how it feels
In time I escaped its shackles
But here you are
Trying to chain me again!
And I'm so sorry...
For you.
07-19-07 (13:18)
Maybe I'm not so afraid now
Dying alone
Alone isn't so bad anymore.
07-26-07 (18:13)
I forget she's an artist
07-26-07 (18:17)
I've become afraid of making mistakes
My writings have always been honest
Truth from my heart
I don't know what's true anymore.
How can I accuse?
Who has done wrong?
What have I made up?
What's true?
I forget.
07-26-07 (23:31)
I've forgotten
But I'll make it up to you
I've been blinded
And I've forgotten
How to open my eyes
Filling up with spiders
Howling moon tonight
My eyes are wired wide
And all I can see through these webs
Darkened skies
The vulgarities and
All the lies!
07-29-07 (02:55)
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07-31-07 (22:04)
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08-01-07 (01:33)
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Well, I apologize for these next two. They are rather stupid and expressing parts of what I wanted to express, but not everything. I was listening to Cute Is What We Aim For at the time that I wrote them earlier today, and so I had this poppy emo tune in my head which did not allow me to express the wholeness of how I felt in the seriousness that I felt it. Anyway...
08-01-07 (13:32)
Burning on the inside
Quiet on the outside
Not so sure ... what to do
I just let go
And it's all over the nightly news
You were the first
And I'm making you the last
If you can take that
Take that!
If you can take that
Take that promise you your grave
It'll never happen again
You missed out on what could've been
The greatest romance you were ever in
And I'm just letting you know that...
I'm just letting you know that it's over
Questions burning on my tongue
Answers dancing on my brain
Next time
Oh (what am I talking about?)
Next time
I'll make sure she doesn't have a problem
Opening her mouth and forming words
Dialing a number
Answering a phone
Standing up for what she loves
Next time
Oh (what am I talking about?)
Next time
There surely won't be one
You missed out on what could've been
The greatest romance you were ever in
And I'm just letting you know
I'm just letting you know that it's over
Burning on the inside
Quiet on the outside
Not so sure .... what to do
I just let go
Yeah
I just let go of you.
I was trying to rewrite this with all the ideas that I wanted to express, but failed again. So here are the results of that failure.
08-01-07 (14:18)
Burning on the inside
Quiet on the outside
Not so sure ... what to do
I just let go
I just let go of you
She's been tell me
That I know
How she feels about it
And she said it sounds
Like I've finally made up my mind
It's been so quiet lately
So quiet all the time
You were the first
And I'm making you the last
Take that promise to your grave
I'll never happen again
I want someone cool and calm
Quite composed not overwhelmed
And when she can't take it
She's not afraid to ask for help
She doesn't have a problem talking
Even when she's far away
And she'll stand up to her parents
For this love she's not afraid
I then tried not rewriting, but that failed as well. So here is that failure. I just couldn't express all that I wanted to. I keep going of to different things. It's like I start off on the right foot, but then get lost and distracted somewhere.
08-01-07 (14:38)
I really feel it on the inside
I really don't want to let go
But what am I holding on to?
What am I holding on to?
Heavy, something's fallen onto me
Weighing me down
Responsibility.
You said you had to prove me wrong
And I gave you your chance
I wanted you to win
But you can't
You've just proven me right again
You can't talk
I don't know why
But I know I can't stay silent
I have to stand up and fight
Someone out there wants what you've stolen from me
My heart, it's a valued treasure
And you can't seem to appreciate
I guarded it so well and gratefully handed it away
To someone who cared
But you're not her
And I need it back now
I won't be used as a backup plan to fall in love
08-01-07 (14:40)
Get busy living
Or get busy dying
I'm not waiting around for this
 | Currently listening : Cover Your Eyes By Sullivan Release date: By 05 June, 2007  |
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